Sometimes little moments hit me hard. I realize that my life is nothing at all as I imagined it would be even a few months ago. The people and opportunities that have come my way have been life changing and wonderful. I mean hell, I am a mother of 4 boys. Not at all what I would have thought would be my biggest priority nor that I would be with Jaymon for all these years through so much. We still like each other too!
I have grown, transformed and dropped off much baggage along the way that I had been carrying for years that were holding me back and making my journey so tough.
I had to fix my head and heart enough to where I could get the stress and emotional eating under control and start using the running as a tool to help melt the pounds.This has been crutial in my weight loss. After I changed my perception about some things and dug deep and took a hard look at myself and what really needed to change was when I was able to stick with an eating plan and make running a priority. I didn't rush around panicking inside and taking any quick fix I could get to ease the stress and suffering. I was also able to realize that the foods I ran to for comfort were making my anxiety skyrocket and caused a viscous cycle.
I encourage anyone who has an emotional eating issue to try eliminating gluten and dairy for a trial period of a few weeks to see if you feel better. Amazingly enough foods don't always make you feel ill if they don't agree with you. They can cause depression and anxiety as well.
Many tears of fear, rage, and joy have been shed alone while my legs were moving and my heart and lungs were pumping. The silent moments when the noise inside has quieted down after running out the noise.These days 9 miles is the sweet spot. The soul searching while running has been a huge factor in my happiness today and continues to be. Barefoot running was key since I can run the miles without hurting.
Its been scary to say the least to look inside at oneself and accept what is there. I regress and backtrack and make the same stupid mistakes sometimes but overall I am liking more and more the person I have become. I have changed some of my patterns or at least am able to recognize when my subconscious wants to go in a certain direction and I can head that off and have some control. When I eff up I am able to accept that I effed up and move on without throwing away everything in a fit of depressive self deprecating pitty partying.
I have accepted that I have no idea what I will be doing or where life will take me. I lean on Jaymon when I get overwhelmed and say to my self "buck up buckaroo" and hold my head up and at least try to look like I know what I am doing!
When I am feeling down or like I just can't take it another second I tell myself, after looking inside at the resevoir of moxie, that in fact I do have more. One of my mantras is "you've got more girlie". Sometimes if I really need to kick myself in the rear then its "you've got more you tough bitch!". "Suck it up buttercup" is a good one too!
Sometimes I just fake it. I act like I know what I am doing since its better than acting confused and on the edge of defeat. It also helps to look good. A cute outfit certainly doesn't hurt. When you are out there struggling in any way, it helps to look sexy doing it!
(gotta love that running farmers tan!)
Coincidentally, after having a morning of surreal appreciation of my journey, I got home to find an email from Enid at Nuu Muu exercise dresses agreeing to sponsor a giveaway of one of their fabulous dresses to one of you.
So now you have the opportunity to try something new! I am really digging the idea of running in a dress. Its an appropriate dress since it moves with you and so cute! I love my running skirts and this is really just an extension of that style.
Check out the gallery!
Also take a gander at the sizing chart! Love the names of the sizes. I am a Marvelous if you wanted to know.
So head on over to Nuu Muu and take a look around. Remember that they have their dresses made in smaller batches so availability can vary.
In case you missed it I reviewed my Nuu Muu dress here an a follow up after running in it here.
There are two mandatory entries. You must post a comment for each thing you do. Boys, you are welcome to enter for your ladies too or if you really want a dress you just have to post a photo if its for you!
- Be a follower of this blog. Either tell me you already are or that you are a new friend (leave a comment)
- Check out Nuu Muu exercise dresses and tell me what you would like from them.
- post a link on your blog to this giveaway
- facebook, twitter, ect and let me know in a comment each time you do.
Best of luck to you!
149 comments:
I follow on Google Reader! What a terrific post!!!
I love all of the designs, but the one that really stands out to me is the "Irongirl." Love it!!!
i'm a follower!
i love the options for girls. i would choose a "not so plain jane" for myself.
Love the field of flowers and the not-so-plain jane!
Follower of course!
Posting on my blog
Angie - What an amazing post. Congrats to you for seeing what a great person you are!
I am a follower :)
Already a follower; I really like Iron Girl.
I follow you with my google reader.
ohhhh so many cute designs to choose from! I like Bubbles, Iron Girl, and Purple.
Heading over to post this on the sidebar of my blog! Have a great night!
And i love the x-dress (and this post! Very heartfelt)
I'm a follower
I like Fiesta or Sassy (in Lovely)
I'm a follower.
I like the x-dress and fiesta.
Linked to my sidebar.
follow you daily:)
I'm a follower.
LOVE the iron girl in a L(ovely)
I would like to have a bubbles dress or Fleur.
I'm a follower!
Love the Fleur style - suck cute dresses! Hope I win!!
Just linked to this giveaway~
I've addedd this give away to my side bar.
linked on facebook:)
I am already a follower!
I love the Foxtrot and admire your heartfelt post...you are an amazing mother, wife, woman and runner :)
I linked you on my blog www.superindi.blogspot.com
Great post!
I'm a follower!
I'm a follower!
loving the fiesta dress!
I follow Barefoot Angie Bee=)
I love the Iron Girl print.
I'm a follower!
I like Puuurple- pretty color.
I am a follower.
I like the Puurple dress.
I follow you.
I like the x dress.
I'm a follower!
And I like the Puurple dress, but I'm pretty sure it's only available in XS. (P.S. where is the sizing you referred to? I looked at the sizing chart, and it seemed pretty straightforward - S, M, L, etc. I want a cool size!)
Oh I am a total follower! Have been will continue to BE, and may I add the dress looks FABULOUS on you!
Could the city cat be any more appropriate for me? I am a total city gal, and I would love me some animal prints on the streets!
Totally linked on my blog giveaway list!
Buttercup, I am SO a proponent of 'fake it til' ya make it' in the world;-)
I am a follower and cool giveaway too.
I am a follower already!
Purple, Iron girl (!!) or firefly for sure, they are all beautiful! Perfect for my DEC marathon! ;)
Tweeted about it, will tweet more later! :)
I am a follower :)
I like the Tango (by the way I forgot to say that I follow as Chris in Google)
i am a follower and really really like the puurple
I'm a follower, thanks.
Mmmm a sassy Puurple caught my eye, too bad that appears to be out of stock.
Cheers.
faithful follower :)
i was soooo hoping you would do a giveaway for this dress, im so intrigued by it!!! there is a blue one on the front page that i like, but cant find it in the store, but i also like the firefly one too
posted on the sidebar of my blog
Posted a link to your blog on my FB status.
I follow you, and really enjoyed reading this post in particular.
I like the Olivia dress, in the solid color. Suits me more than some of the florals, but they're all great looking.
I am a follower already!! And I have you on Facebook too!!
Loooooooooooove running in skirts/dresses!
I would choose either the X Dress or the Soiree!!! Extra small would be my size!!!
Tweet!
I like the not-so-plan-jane in coco!
Great postive post and outlook on life!
Adam
Great post, Angie!
I'm a follower
I like the Bubbles Fiesta print. Very fun!
I'm a follower! :)
So many great prints! I like the Limelight print. :)
I posted a link and blurb on my blog! :)
Great post! I'm already a follower.
Love the Coco (why don't I have any brown running gear?!) and Fleur.
I posted a link on my Facebook profile. :)
I am a follower!
I like the bluebelle dress!
Tweeted. :)
facebooked it!
Have it on my blog sidebar!
I love this post. Running is very emotional for me too. Its amazing all the crap I can run out.
I want the Fiesta dress please!!!
I'm a follower and spent about an hour window shopping yesterday after reading your review. So Cute!
I'm torn between bubbles and any of the solid colors.
I hope my running friends check out the link I posted on facebook!
a dress???? no way.
Love it.
I like "irongirl".
i follow!!
I am a follower!
I really like the Iron Girl and the Fox Trot! Sooo freaking cute! Hope I win!
I am a new follower who learned about you today from Makita's site.
I like Coco. I like plain, or x girl. :)
This is a beautiful, enlightening post. Thank you for sharing some of your own struggle/journey that has taken you to the place you are today.
I'm a follower!
I just checked out their line (so cute) and I'd go with City Cat.
oooooh I love it! I love the Bubbles.
I just followed you on Google Friend Connect!
Love the post very inspiring and gives me hope that I can combat my eating demons one day as well, thanks for sharing.
I follow you and I love the X dress!
I love your dress and think it would be PERFECT.
I linked you in.
I'm a follower of your blog.
I love the Olivia dress. Love the color.
Just tweeted about your giveaway @CCJade23
I follow you!!
I love the Fox Trot dress! Thanks for hosting this great giveaway :-).
Follower here!
Also, wanted to tell you that this is an excellent post. :)
I am a follower!
You look so great in yours! I never thought I would want one but I'd love to try out the Iron Girl!
Just added your contest to my contest page: http://fromfat2fab2009.blogspot.com
I follow! :)
I love the foxtrot... Size sassy. Lol
I blogged about your giveaway here:http://www.fitthisgirl.com/2010/06/kale-chips-sunshine.html
And gave you props for my coconut oil winnings!! :)
I tweeted the giveaway a second time as well!
I am a new reader. I follow you on Google.
I love these Fiesta,Foxglove,Fleur,Bluebelle
Those old demons come back at the strangest times I think. I love your attitude and how you handle them. Just being so aware of your feelings is half the battle I think. It's easy to suppress them. You give me inspiration to live a healthier life!
I am a faithful (lately silent) follwer. ~ darn palm pre+ does not make for easy commenting when I don't have a computer handy!!
~~~Super cute in that dress! I loved your post. I agree that running allows the runner to turn those eyes inward (if a person choses or dares to!). I have achieved a lot of personal growth and awareness through the time I spent running!
I love Fleur and Limelight. I love this product! How did you find them???
Posting a link on FB.
...and linking you on in post.
I'm a follower
I can't decide if I'd pick a dress for my daughter or my wife. If you get us 2, I'll get one in my size, post the photo, and then do a giveaway!
Linked in sidebar
Tweeted @kovasp
I love the Olivia dress. Too cute!
you are on my bookmarks bar, and have been a regular reader for the last month or so. Love your writing style and approach to live. Irreverent and fierce.
I especially would like the fleur.
Also - I am also going to pass along to Sal at alreadypretty who was looking for some good exercise wear. She would love this!
posted again on my Thumbs Up! Thursday post :)
I really like the Firefly, but it says it's not available =( My second favorite would be Puurple
I follow!
Tweeted it!
I really like the Iron Girl dress! Love the solid color with the accent ribbing :)
LOVE the Foxtrot style! I'm a big fan of the skort, so the dress is the next logical step. Super super cute. I'm following you on my feed and via the spouse, Barefoot Josh.
you know i follow. i love the fleur dress. it's hot
i'm a follower of your blog :)
i like any of the not-so-plain jane dresses... Foxtrot, purple, etc. :)
http://twitter.com/sekeil5/status/17576326106
posted on twitter
I follow your blog on Google Reader, though sometimes I come visit "in person".
Pick one dress? How is that possible?
I really like Soiree and Olivia, though I think Coco and City Cat are awesome as well.
My size is somewhere between Marvelous and Lovely. Give me 6 weeks and it will definitely be Marvelous!
New follower here, love your honesty, thank you!
I love the Foxtrot, but the Tango, Olivia and Iron Girl sure are super cute too!
Your giveaway is officially on my blog!
Just sent out another tweet on the giveaway, I LOVE these dresses! Working hard! :)
I like the fluer dress
tweeted it @bobbie087
posted it on facebook
I already follow blog.
I like the puuurple dress and the Fleur.
I'm a follower!!!
I like the x-dress, purple, & iron girl dress so far.
I tweeted ~ windyrunner. It's still only 11:30 here so I hope I still count.
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