Sometimes little moments hit me hard. I realize that my life is nothing at all as I imagined it would be even a few months ago. The people and opportunities that have come my way have been life changing and wonderful. I mean hell, I am a mother of 4 boys. Not at all what I would have thought would be my biggest priority nor that I would be with Jaymon for all these years through so much. We still like each other too!
I have grown, transformed and dropped off much baggage along the way that I had been carrying for years that were holding me back and making my journey so tough.
I had to fix my head and heart enough to where I could get the stress and emotional eating under control and start using the running as a tool to help melt the pounds.This has been crutial in my weight loss. After I changed my perception about some things and dug deep and took a hard look at myself and what really needed to change was when I was able to stick with an eating plan and make running a priority. I didn't rush around panicking inside and taking any quick fix I could get to ease the stress and suffering. I was also able to realize that the foods I ran to for comfort were making my anxiety skyrocket and caused a viscous cycle.
I encourage anyone who has an emotional eating issue to try eliminating gluten and dairy for a trial period of a few weeks to see if you feel better. Amazingly enough foods don't always make you feel ill if they don't agree with you. They can cause depression and anxiety as well.
Many tears of fear, rage, and joy have been shed alone while my legs were moving and my heart and lungs were pumping. The silent moments when the noise inside has quieted down after running out the noise.These days 9 miles is the sweet spot. The soul searching while running has been a huge factor in my happiness today and continues to be. Barefoot running was key since I can run the miles without hurting.
Its been scary to say the least to look inside at oneself and accept what is there. I regress and backtrack and make the same stupid mistakes sometimes but overall I am liking more and more the person I have become. I have changed some of my patterns or at least am able to recognize when my subconscious wants to go in a certain direction and I can head that off and have some control. When I eff up I am able to accept that I effed up and move on without throwing away everything in a fit of depressive self deprecating pitty partying.
I have accepted that I have no idea what I will be doing or where life will take me. I lean on Jaymon when I get overwhelmed and say to my self "buck up buckaroo" and hold my head up and at least try to look like I know what I am doing!
When I am feeling down or like I just can't take it another second I tell myself, after looking inside at the resevoir of moxie, that in fact I do have more. One of my mantras is "you've got more girlie". Sometimes if I really need to kick myself in the rear then its "you've got more you tough bitch!". "Suck it up buttercup" is a good one too!
Sometimes I just fake it. I act like I know what I am doing since its better than acting confused and on the edge of defeat. It also helps to look good. A cute outfit certainly doesn't hurt. When you are out there struggling in any way, it helps to look sexy doing it!
(gotta love that running farmers tan!)
Coincidentally, after having a morning of surreal appreciation of my journey, I got home to find an email from Enid at Nuu Muu exercise dresses agreeing to sponsor a giveaway of one of their fabulous dresses to one of you.
So now you have the opportunity to try something new! I am really digging the idea of running in a dress. Its an appropriate dress since it moves with you and so cute! I love my running skirts and this is really just an extension of that style.
Check out the gallery!
Also take a gander at the sizing chart! Love the names of the sizes. I am a Marvelous if you wanted to know.
So head on over to Nuu Muu and take a look around. Remember that they have their dresses made in smaller batches so availability can vary.
In case you missed it I reviewed my Nuu Muu dress here an a follow up after running in it here.
There are two mandatory entries. You must post a comment for each thing you do. Boys, you are welcome to enter for your ladies too or if you really want a dress you just have to post a photo if its for you!
- Be a follower of this blog. Either tell me you already are or that you are a new friend (leave a comment)
- Check out Nuu Muu exercise dresses and tell me what you would like from them.
- post a link on your blog to this giveaway
- facebook, twitter, ect and let me know in a comment each time you do.
Best of luck to you!
I follow on Google Reader! What a terrific post!!!
ReplyDeleteI love all of the designs, but the one that really stands out to me is the "Irongirl." Love it!!!
ReplyDeletei'm a follower!
ReplyDeletei love the options for girls. i would choose a "not so plain jane" for myself.
ReplyDeleteLove the field of flowers and the not-so-plain jane!
ReplyDeleteFollower of course!
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ReplyDeleteAngie - What an amazing post. Congrats to you for seeing what a great person you are!
ReplyDeleteI am a follower :)
Already a follower; I really like Iron Girl.
ReplyDeleteI follow you with my google reader.
ReplyDeleteohhhh so many cute designs to choose from! I like Bubbles, Iron Girl, and Purple.
ReplyDeleteHeading over to post this on the sidebar of my blog! Have a great night!
ReplyDeleteAnd i love the x-dress (and this post! Very heartfelt)
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower
ReplyDeleteI like Fiesta or Sassy (in Lovely)
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower.
ReplyDeleteI like the x-dress and fiesta.
ReplyDeleteLinked to my sidebar.
ReplyDeletefollow you daily:)
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower.
ReplyDeleteLOVE the iron girl in a L(ovely)
ReplyDeleteI would like to have a bubbles dress or Fleur.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!
ReplyDeleteLove the Fleur style - suck cute dresses! Hope I win!!
ReplyDeleteJust linked to this giveaway~
ReplyDeleteI've addedd this give away to my side bar.
ReplyDeletelinked on facebook:)
ReplyDeleteI am already a follower!
ReplyDeleteI love the Foxtrot and admire your heartfelt post...you are an amazing mother, wife, woman and runner :)
ReplyDeleteI linked you on my blog www.superindi.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteGreat post!
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!
I'm a follower!
ReplyDeleteloving the fiesta dress!
ReplyDeleteI follow Barefoot Angie Bee=)
ReplyDeleteI love the Iron Girl print.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!
ReplyDeleteI like Puuurple- pretty color.
ReplyDeleteI am a follower.
ReplyDeleteI like the Puurple dress.
ReplyDeleteI follow you.
ReplyDeleteI like the x dress.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!
ReplyDeleteAnd I like the Puurple dress, but I'm pretty sure it's only available in XS. (P.S. where is the sizing you referred to? I looked at the sizing chart, and it seemed pretty straightforward - S, M, L, etc. I want a cool size!)
ReplyDeleteOh I am a total follower! Have been will continue to BE, and may I add the dress looks FABULOUS on you!
ReplyDeleteCould the city cat be any more appropriate for me? I am a total city gal, and I would love me some animal prints on the streets!
ReplyDeleteTotally linked on my blog giveaway list!
ReplyDeleteButtercup, I am SO a proponent of 'fake it til' ya make it' in the world;-)
ReplyDeleteI am a follower and cool giveaway too.
I am a follower already!
ReplyDeletePurple, Iron girl (!!) or firefly for sure, they are all beautiful! Perfect for my DEC marathon! ;)
ReplyDeleteTweeted about it, will tweet more later! :)
ReplyDeleteI am a follower :)
ReplyDeleteI like the Tango (by the way I forgot to say that I follow as Chris in Google)
ReplyDeletei am a follower and really really like the puurple
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower, thanks.
ReplyDeleteMmmm a sassy Puurple caught my eye, too bad that appears to be out of stock.
ReplyDeleteCheers.
faithful follower :)
ReplyDeletei was soooo hoping you would do a giveaway for this dress, im so intrigued by it!!! there is a blue one on the front page that i like, but cant find it in the store, but i also like the firefly one too
ReplyDeleteposted on the sidebar of my blog
ReplyDeletePosted a link to your blog on my FB status.
ReplyDeleteI follow you, and really enjoyed reading this post in particular.
ReplyDeleteI like the Olivia dress, in the solid color. Suits me more than some of the florals, but they're all great looking.
ReplyDeleteI am a follower already!! And I have you on Facebook too!!
ReplyDeleteLoooooooooooove running in skirts/dresses!
I would choose either the X Dress or the Soiree!!! Extra small would be my size!!!
Tweet!
ReplyDeleteI like the not-so-plan-jane in coco!
ReplyDeleteGreat postive post and outlook on life!
ReplyDeleteAdam
Great post, Angie!
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower
ReplyDeleteI like the Bubbles Fiesta print. Very fun!
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower! :)
ReplyDeleteSo many great prints! I like the Limelight print. :)
ReplyDeleteI posted a link and blurb on my blog! :)
ReplyDeleteGreat post! I'm already a follower.
ReplyDeleteLove the Coco (why don't I have any brown running gear?!) and Fleur.
ReplyDeleteI posted a link on my Facebook profile. :)
ReplyDeleteI am a follower!
ReplyDeleteI like the bluebelle dress!
ReplyDeleteTweeted. :)
ReplyDeletefacebooked it!
ReplyDeleteHave it on my blog sidebar!
ReplyDeleteI love this post. Running is very emotional for me too. Its amazing all the crap I can run out.
ReplyDeleteI want the Fiesta dress please!!!
I'm a follower and spent about an hour window shopping yesterday after reading your review. So Cute!
ReplyDeleteI'm torn between bubbles and any of the solid colors.
ReplyDeleteI hope my running friends check out the link I posted on facebook!
ReplyDeletea dress???? no way.
ReplyDeleteLove it.
I like "irongirl".
ReplyDeletei follow!!
ReplyDeleteI am a follower!
ReplyDeleteI really like the Iron Girl and the Fox Trot! Sooo freaking cute! Hope I win!
ReplyDeleteI am a new follower who learned about you today from Makita's site.
ReplyDeleteI like Coco. I like plain, or x girl. :)
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful, enlightening post. Thank you for sharing some of your own struggle/journey that has taken you to the place you are today.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!
I just checked out their line (so cute) and I'd go with City Cat.
ReplyDeleteoooooh I love it! I love the Bubbles.
ReplyDeleteI just followed you on Google Friend Connect!
ReplyDeleteLove the post very inspiring and gives me hope that I can combat my eating demons one day as well, thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteI follow you and I love the X dress!
ReplyDeleteI love your dress and think it would be PERFECT.
ReplyDeleteI linked you in.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower of your blog.
ReplyDeleteI love the Olivia dress. Love the color.
ReplyDeleteJust tweeted about your giveaway @CCJade23
ReplyDeleteI follow you!!
ReplyDeleteI love the Fox Trot dress! Thanks for hosting this great giveaway :-).
ReplyDeleteFollower here!
ReplyDeleteAlso, wanted to tell you that this is an excellent post. :)
I am a follower!
ReplyDeleteYou look so great in yours! I never thought I would want one but I'd love to try out the Iron Girl!
ReplyDeleteJust added your contest to my contest page: http://fromfat2fab2009.blogspot.com
ReplyDeleteI follow! :)
ReplyDeleteI love the foxtrot... Size sassy. Lol
ReplyDeleteI blogged about your giveaway here:http://www.fitthisgirl.com/2010/06/kale-chips-sunshine.html
ReplyDeleteAnd gave you props for my coconut oil winnings!! :)
I tweeted the giveaway a second time as well!
ReplyDeleteI am a new reader. I follow you on Google.
ReplyDeleteI love these Fiesta,Foxglove,Fleur,Bluebelle
ReplyDeleteThose old demons come back at the strangest times I think. I love your attitude and how you handle them. Just being so aware of your feelings is half the battle I think. It's easy to suppress them. You give me inspiration to live a healthier life!
ReplyDeleteI am a faithful (lately silent) follwer. ~ darn palm pre+ does not make for easy commenting when I don't have a computer handy!!
ReplyDelete~~~Super cute in that dress! I loved your post. I agree that running allows the runner to turn those eyes inward (if a person choses or dares to!). I have achieved a lot of personal growth and awareness through the time I spent running!
I love Fleur and Limelight. I love this product! How did you find them???
ReplyDeletePosting a link on FB.
ReplyDelete...and linking you on in post.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower
ReplyDeleteI can't decide if I'd pick a dress for my daughter or my wife. If you get us 2, I'll get one in my size, post the photo, and then do a giveaway!
ReplyDeleteLinked in sidebar
ReplyDeleteTweeted @kovasp
ReplyDeleteI love the Olivia dress. Too cute!
ReplyDeleteyou are on my bookmarks bar, and have been a regular reader for the last month or so. Love your writing style and approach to live. Irreverent and fierce.
ReplyDeleteI especially would like the fleur.
Also - I am also going to pass along to Sal at alreadypretty who was looking for some good exercise wear. She would love this!
ReplyDeleteposted again on my Thumbs Up! Thursday post :)
ReplyDeleteI really like the Firefly, but it says it's not available =( My second favorite would be Puurple
ReplyDeleteI follow!
ReplyDeleteTweeted it!
ReplyDeleteI really like the Iron Girl dress! Love the solid color with the accent ribbing :)
ReplyDeleteLOVE the Foxtrot style! I'm a big fan of the skort, so the dress is the next logical step. Super super cute. I'm following you on my feed and via the spouse, Barefoot Josh.
ReplyDeleteyou know i follow. i love the fleur dress. it's hot
ReplyDeletei'm a follower of your blog :)
ReplyDeletei like any of the not-so-plain jane dresses... Foxtrot, purple, etc. :)
ReplyDeletehttp://twitter.com/sekeil5/status/17576326106
ReplyDeleteposted on twitter
I follow your blog on Google Reader, though sometimes I come visit "in person".
ReplyDeletePick one dress? How is that possible?
ReplyDeleteI really like Soiree and Olivia, though I think Coco and City Cat are awesome as well.
My size is somewhere between Marvelous and Lovely. Give me 6 weeks and it will definitely be Marvelous!
New follower here, love your honesty, thank you!
ReplyDeleteI love the Foxtrot, but the Tango, Olivia and Iron Girl sure are super cute too!
ReplyDeleteYour giveaway is officially on my blog!
ReplyDeleteJust sent out another tweet on the giveaway, I LOVE these dresses! Working hard! :)
ReplyDeleteI like the fluer dress
ReplyDeletetweeted it @bobbie087
ReplyDeleteposted it on facebook
ReplyDeleteI already follow blog.
ReplyDeleteI like the puuurple dress and the Fleur.
ReplyDeleteI'm a follower!!!
ReplyDeleteI like the x-dress, purple, & iron girl dress so far.
ReplyDeleteI tweeted ~ windyrunner. It's still only 11:30 here so I hope I still count.
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