Heart and Sole

  Today I was surprised with a phone call follow up from my cardiologist.  I would not have guessed that he would call me himself but call he did and he took the time to answer questions for me as well.    He wanted to know what I thought of my visit with the surgeon.  Considering that they are colleagues and I didn't want to come across as overly emotional I kept it to the facts instead of that I was freaked out by the surgeon's nonchalant attitude about ripping open my chest and fiddling with my heart.  I do not want to have surgery.

As an aside,  I had a c-section with my first spawn.  While pregnant and then a year after I had him I worked as a waitress at the Country Club that my OBGYN and his partner were members of.    I always thought it so fantasticly surreal and down right creepy that I would serve meals to men that had cut me open and felt my guts and then pulled out another human being from the gaping wound....crazyness.

 So back to my heart,  I let Dr. Chawla know that I did not want to risk surgery considering the conflicting test results and the ability that I have to manage the chest pain through meditation and yoga.  I also told him that I have stopped taking all medication except for iron and I feel much much better.

  He said to take it slow when I start running again and be aware and cautious of any kind of chest pain while I am running.  He didn't see my anomalous artery as an issue to be addressed now but one to just be aware of in case there are future issues of which he didn't think were going to creep up. He said that he didn't think that the chest issues at rest were related to my heart directly and that he thought it was indeed stress.  Best of all he said that I should keep doing what I was doing in regards to the yoga, stress reduction, no unnecessary meds, and keep up the meditation.   This was just what I wanted to hear!!  Good news for me.

  Having grown up in a family that revere doctors as royalty I found my conversation comforting on a subconscious level.  I felt relieved and reassured by his mellow approach and agreement that I should do what feels right to me.  I felt  like I could believe what I thought was working because he said it was ok.  I have worked hard to think for myself and weigh perspectives instead of blindly trusting the most scary doctor.  If I had done that I would be recovering from open heart surgery with a strong likelyhood that it would have been a cover your ass hack job instead of one to address a problem that was shown on the test results.  That or I might be dead from complications or a number of very real complications.

It is supposed to be hot the next couple of days so I will wait until the weekend when it cools down again and then I am going to go for a little run.  Barefoot of course.  I will take it slow and steady.  Heart and Sole.

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